For many years I found myself looking in the mirror feeling disgusted and unhappy with the person I saw staring back at me.
I felt miserable and depressed because everything I put on in my cupboard was either too tight, exposing the areas I would rather have kept covered or it just didn’t fit me at all.
Being an emotional eater, it was hard for me.
Everytime I felt stressed, angry, anxious or worried about something I ate. My eating had spiralled so out of control that I was no longer wearing a size 34. I was now wearing a size 38 bordering on a 40.
Having to look at myself in the mirror everyday made me feel so unhappy. I knew that if I didn’t do something about it, it was going to affect my mind and soon my entire life.
At the end of 2016 I decided to go to gym. I wanted to lose a bit of weight but I didn’t want to be skinny.
Going to gym 5 to 6 times a week, really helped me tone my body in all the right places and I am happy with the results I see. I was never on a diet. I just tried to eat balanced meals everyday and tried my best not to eat luxuries from a Monday to Thursday.
However, I never deprived myself of luxuries or something nice but I kept that for weekends because that’s normally when most of us whine down after a hard week at work.
This lifestyle has worked for me because I came down from a size 38 to almost fitting into a size 32 and I am very proud of my progress.
I set myself a goal at the end of 2016 and I told myself that by the end of 2017 I want to be confident enough to do a photo shoot wearing a two piece swimsuit and I did.
As you all can see I am not a skinny girl at all and I don’t want to be. I just want to look and be healthy not only for myself but for my daughter too because she looks up to me.
Just because you are plus size doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t take care of yourself and your health.
Being healthy and keeping fit is important too and we shouldn’t lose focus on that.
I know that many women out there find it hard to pick themselves up again after picking up a lot of weight. They feel discouraged and are extremely hard on themselves about it so they go into a state of depression.
Ladies, I want to tell you today that you are not alone. We as women all go through this phase at some stage of our lives. Skinny girls struggle to pick up weight and plus size girls struggle to lose the weight. It’s all part of life.
So don’t be so hard on yourself. Take it one day at a time. To me progress is progress no matter how big or small it is. The key is to never lose focus and to keep your mind on the end game.
I always tell my daughter there is no such thing as I can’t do something. There is only something like I can because the Bible tells us that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.
Stay true to yourself.
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