My weight has always been my insecurity.
I am one of that people who loses weight and then picks it up again.
My biggest problem is if I go to the shops, I always find myself in the luxury isle and to tell you the truth, I never come out of the shops without a luxury item in the trolley.
The worst feeling for me is if I am going out and I have a picture in my mind of an outfit I want to wear and I fit it on and it doesn’t fit me. After that it feels like everything I fit on doesn’t fit me properly anymore and I start feeling depressed. I don’t even feel like going out after all of that.
I have asked myself the question, what kind of example am I setting to my child. If I just keep buying luxuries, I am actually making a luxury become a necessity. Kaylie will become expectant of it and it will become just as much an addiction to her as it is for me.
Normally when I feel down and depressed about my weight, I go on quick fix diets. I will lose the weight but as soon as the diet is over I fall right back into my old ways and I end up picking up more weight than I actually lost in the first place.
I know that I have been in this boat for far too long and it’s definitely time for a change. They say change is as good as a holiday so watch this space.
I know that with hard work and determination I can do anything I set my mind to. I have done it in the past before where I went down from a size 36 to a size 26 in a period of 9 months and I kept the weight off for many years after that. That proves to me that nothing is impossible.
It’s time to stop complaining about the same things over and over and start doing something about it.
Only I can change the way I feel about myself, no one else can. I need to step out of my comfort zone and start working on myself again. I have lost myself somewhere along the line and I have to find myself again by making time for me.
I have realised that everything takes time and that nothing happens overnight because true results are shown over time.
Personally, I know that if I feel healthy, am energised and look good and feel good about myself again, I will feel like a new person.
We all have something that we feel insecure about. Sometimes we even try to hide it but what we don’t realise is that by hiding it we don’t deal with it, we just keep living with it.
Stay true to yourself.
Boots: Shoe City
Skinny Jeans: The Fix
Turtle Neck: The Fix
Riffle Waist Coat: Mr Price
Faux Fur Scarf unattached from a Jersey: Legit
Clip in hair extensions: Loxology hair Extensions
Photography done by: Radcliffe Roelse from Roelse Events Photography